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Hey man about the "hoe bag" one.. at the end.. about that not being the "kind" of love you know that you don't want. Don't ever let yourself be fooled into thinking that is any form of love..

That's only one selfish biatch.. and your better off.

Brian

Hey as much as you might not see it... I could have written the same exact entries.. only 5.. 6.. 7 or whatever it is years ago..

That's werid to hear the same exact thoughts and experiences but coming from you.

Most people don't have the balls to admit that they feel that way.. they just go about acting like they don't feel weird or nervous at all. If you ever get "behind the scenes" or in their head.. "they" or most of us are actually feeling that way.. just don't want to acknowledge it.. because like all fears/worries/stresses.. it'll go away right? No. The other popular alternative is to just simply tell your self "I don't give a damn".. well this isn't all that intirely unhealthy.. just not a perminate solution...

This isn't all that uncommon even with girls too actually.. many PEOPLE feel just like this.. but again most.. like a friken sheep or lemming... they just follow along and go alone with the easiest path.. not the best..

What I am getting at is that stop giving a damn.. about all those that don't fliping care about you... and don't seem to have a problem just being the selfish gay pornstars that they know how. F-them.. seriously.. screwem.. like you said right ..it's not worth tossing out.. or letting go of .. or sacrafising your sanity your happiness for theirs.. in fact it's impossible.

You know you can't "lift up the feeble hands" if yours is also to weak, or no higher than theirs... if your on the same level, or lower than they are..

You need to focus and appreciate those that do give a damn.

damnit.

yeah it was hard to say that to myself at first but it gets easier as the days go on... it does help to hear it every now and again though, thanks.



yeah, thats why i created this webpage and i am glad that you brought this up. this webpage and forum are for people to post things like what i have done in my blog and it is their words, no interuptions, no crap about it, no sugar coating. gloves on the ice so to speak. well said though. i am still trying to be less desperate for friends and such but i am starting to come to the conclusion that you have stated above. if people don't give a crap then thats fine they can crap somewhere else....

Crap.. they can just plain crap on themselves..

efem.. efemall..demudapheqas...

later man...

nice site.. props to you and Thomas..

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Hey Patrick,

just toss this crap out and forget about women.. they are only going to be in your way.. at the moment.. focus on whats important.. (that now concludes the big brother advice for this evening).

Sometime people say "the key is to remember".. Some times with topics like these it is just the opposite.

later man... it's already 3:40-ish.. (am)

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agreed

eh, different strokes for different folks. however in this case we might both be right so yeah we'll have to wait for later to find out.

on another topic i kinda realized why i wasn't having such a great time at home... it was because i couldn't get over my parents little faults. it took alot of thinking and a kick in the pants to figure it out but i did and now its much easier to be around my parents. my only hope now is to keep that paitence and Christ-like forgiveness in my mind at all times so i don't start acting like a jack @$$ again.

exactly.. (what you said)..

another update and maybe another soon...

Big hugs Patrick. Such is life... girls are evil, I know this... the worst thing you can do is bar them all as evil though... Some girls make the mistake that what they're doing helps their loved ones, just know that we make crass, stupid decisions on whims. Forgive us for being weak. A lot of us have good intentions though. monsieur, c'est la vie. best of luck

yeah, this i wish i could remember when something like that happens its just hard to see past my own nose sometimes. thanks for the encouragement, we all need a bit of that every now and again.